I Miss You

Eric leaves tonight after work to go on a big camping trip for 5 days with his dad and brothers. As much as he is looking forward to it, I’m going to really miss him. Its remarkable how even though he is not there when I go to bed, I look forward to waking up next to him. I suppose it is a comfort thing. I am going back home for the weekend to try and figure out some wedding details with mom. She has a good mind for seeing the ‘whole’ picture before any of it is done…thank god because I don’t!! Word is we are supposed to have a pretty bad winter here since the summer has been so mild (hit record lows) so I would ideally like to get as much as human possible done before the temperatures start dipping into the single digits. Just thinking about how many things we have left to do makes my head spin. Hopefully after this weekend I’ll have a better grip on things…hopefully, the 2hr drive is painful so it better be worth it!
For a few months I have been trying to eat as healthy as possible, even taking vitamins (impressive huh) and walking during the week with J since she is also trying to drop a few pounds. All this working out & eating healthy better pay off for the big day because I could really go for a huge chocolate chip cookie right now…and ice cream. Mmm. Instead of calling it a ‘diet’ I am anticipating this being a life-style change, as is J. I didn’t eat unhealthy to begin with but I’m starting to work more salads, fruit and veggies into my diet…oh yes, and water! Plenty of it!! Both J and I want to have children in the near future and somewhere one of us heard if you are skinny before you get pregnant you will most likely be all belly (no clue if there is any truth to that) J Plus, I would much rather look back on our honeymoon pictures and say “wow I was lean” instead of “wish I had dropped those last few pounds”….its all psychological I know.
As I sit a work, bored out of my mind so many questions run through my head. Will we still be head over heels in love 10yrs from now? What obstacles will we face and how will we handle them? Will we like where we move? Will we be good parents? Only time will tell, but as the wedding day is slowly but surely approaching I can only expect questions like this to become more frequent. I think its normal…right?

L-O-V-E

There is officially 9 months 2 weeks and 1 day until the big wedding day. I decided to start keeping a blog of feelings/stressful situations and just plain documentation of how our engagement is slowly ending and our lives as husband and wife will soon begin. Maybe one day I will look back on this and laugh J It is funny to think about how much I have grown up since I got engaged, everything from the way I think about life and my future plans to the relationship with my family on a daily basis. Everything includes Eric and what is best for us, not just me anymore. I find myself being more ‘motherly’, but not in the same sense of my mom being motherly, but more or less making sure laundry is done, the dishes are in the dishwasher and the pets are fed. I’m becoming an actual adult. When did that happen? It’s scary yet exciting to be starting a new chapter in my life with someone I love. When Eric and I were dating I rarely felt the butterflies in my stomach, but the feeling was more comfortable and easy-going then head over heels in love. The closer and closer it’s getting to the wedding the more we are communicating and working through tough issues I sense that this is helping our relationship tremendously. I’m beginning to get those exciting butterflies in my stomach, can’t wait until the next time I see him kind of feeling. I don’t know where it came from or when it started but it is the most amazing sensation I have ever felt in my life. In my heart I truly believe he is the one for me. He is so motivated and caring, I only wish I had ½ the drive he does, and he will be graduating next spring with his MBA. I wish he knew how proud I was of him; this is an amazing accomplishment I want to tell him that over and over again. What’s so important to me is that he not only believes in himself, he also believes in me…that I can accomplish anything if I want to and he’ll back me up 100%. Its re-assuring to have someone I can count on by my side. We are starting to explore our options for moving after we get married, Eric wants to be able to transfer with his current job and ideally I will too; however we want to have children right away (scary!) so I guess time will tell? All I know is that I am the luckiest woman in the world :-)

Inspirational

unemployment

No doubt is is frustrating trying to find a job, but the long mornings and being able to hang out with eric all day is so relaxing its wonderful! I cant even begin to tell you how much I've gotten done around the house. Here is a picture of our back entry way leading to the basement-to the right (out of pic) is the kichen. It used to be bright yellow and the stairs were white-I did all of this in one day! I'm clearly not finished yet!!

Ab Pain..

This has been going on for a few days now, stabbing pain occasionally in my abdomen (right about right hip). Not much fun, and according to webMD it could be anything from gas to appendicites. ::sigh:: I guess if I explode we will all know what happened.
Dont have much else to say, just need somewhere to complain.

Podcasting...

For the first time ever I have discovered pod casting on itunes. Did you know these are all FREE? How was this secret kept from me for so long? I've spent most of the evening until now searching for fun things to listen to at the gym and I've found just that, fun things but not something I'd want to listen to while sweating it on the treadmil. oh well..the search will continue tomorrow.
Today was another chilly day, however no more snow-and our cable was having problems so I'm already frustrated. I wish Eric and I could take a last minute trip over the holiday to celebrate just being together and loving life. I'm sure this wont happen for numerous reasons-but I can dream right?
The job search is coming along. I've sent out so many resumes I'm afraid it will be too depressing to add them all up. In this economy I understand its hard to find work, but thought I would have better luck with good experience and a couple degrees...apparently I've been proved wrong. Other than the job issue, life is good. I've gotten into baking and cooking a little more which Eric loves. I've painted 2 rooms and I'm hoping to do a 3rd this week-can you tell I've been bored? When I was working it seemed like there just was never enough hours in the day, now it seems like there is too many. Oh well...

Worms

Hello everyone! Thanks for taking the time to look at my blog. Although I consider myself to have some computer skills, it will take me some time to figure out this whole blogging thing. A little bit about my family; I live with my amazing fiance in Iowa-he works full time while going back to grad school and I am well, inbetween jobs at the moment. Most of my time is spent trying to get our wedding organized. We have 2 cats (Molly and Digit) and we also have a corgi named Jameson. Well, my littlest kitten "Molly" I believe has worms :(. So sad, but I'm hoping she will make a strong comeback.
I cant believe how much of the Christmas spirit I am this year. Seems like in the past I'm sick of christmas music but now I cant get enough-I've even got into decorating too! Probably has something to do with graduating and moving out of the "roommate" situation.
Thanksgiving was good, Eric and I went to my parents house (about 2 hrs away) for the day. We ate too much Turkey and played scrable and 500. The day after we did some shopping and went to his parents for some pizza and cards. I'm so blessed to be welcomed into my future inlaws family. I couldnt be luckier to feel like I have a family away from home.
We FINALLY got our first snow of the year. About 2-3 inches fell overnight, so I was greeted with a blanket of white all over the lawn. So peaceful